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[23 Dec 2007|10:23pm]
Merry christmas + Happy new year.
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[19 Jul 2007|09:57pm]
im here
i want someone to STOP calling me!
he wont listen to me
i dont want to change my number cause i got so many ppl from my college and my family has it. ugh. so if u see this post STOP CALLING ME!.
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[01 Jan 2007|06:41am]
happy new year every one
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[31 Dec 2006|12:42am]
happy holidays
im back for good everyone
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[21 May 2006|07:50pm]
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[15 May 2006|08:21pm]
alive. just frustrated.
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[04 May 2006|01:51pm]
someone help me think of a good lj name im tired of this one
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[04 May 2006|12:54pm]
hey. well i just been doing my exams all morning and im not done yet cause i wanted to take a break and work out to get my mind going which it did and it made me feel a lot better. i just did 20 minutes on a bike because im home alone and ive been having more episodes lately so my mom didnt want anythig to happen so she told me i could just do the bike and not sit ups. which was fine with me. im not really a work out type of person but if i push myself to do it then i will do it and i will feel a lot better trust me or at least i would be thinking a lot more positive then i would of been if i didnt work out. anyway right now im listening to The Lion King on my ipod! i love my black ipod. my new phone is gonna be here supposively tomorrow so ima be all excited and happy :)! and in a good mood trust me i promise lol. im just in a good mood since i worked out earlier i guess it does get you thinking good and not bad about yourself! lol. oh i just can't wait to beeeeee KINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. lol dont worry im just in a good/hyper mood right now. i got my ipod + my diet pepsi so im all set and ready for anything that comes in my way and tries to ruin my day trust me. you may find me being silly in this one but yanno what i think ya would want me to be silly + happy instead of bitchy + depressed .. am i right or am i right? :). okay thats it for now comment. love you bunches!!.
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[03 May 2006|11:40am]
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[03 May 2006|10:14am]
i think my depression is kicking back in and i really dont want it too! i dont need it. trust me. i am fine now i really dont want to fall back into depression AGAIN it just fucking sucks. i just want to be happy and when i do things suddenly happen that make it go down the fucking drain and i dont even do it. which really pisses me off !! im sorry u guys have to read about me bitching and everything but it is my journal and if u dont like reading it then just un friend me and ill do the same thing. anyway im done as of now with school. finished my first year of college. got two of my final exams done now just waiting on two more then im finished. i love my computers teacher i just called him to let him know i sent my exam through email to him and he should get it soon or if he got it then to look at it since he's got a busy day today so i told him when ever u can grade it or whatever it doesnt matter to me. he didnt think i'd get it done so quick but since i was done with my first final and that i hadn't gotten my other two exams i was really bored and had nothing better to do so i did his exam in two days. eh today im seeing my old doctor instead of the new one that i have cause i like her a lot better and because she gave my seizure medicine so i trust her a lot better than the one i saw a few days ago believe me. right now i am just in my room watching spongebob squarepants because theres nothing good on TV and im the only one at my house right now thank god. my mom and my step dad woke me up by talking so god damn loud. i love my mom but my step dad was the one talking so fucking loud which was gonna make me get up and yell "DO U HAVE TO TALK ANY LOUDER?!" my god i mean even i dont talk that fucking loud shit at least not at 7:30 AM in the damn morning when u know that ur step daughter is in bed SLEEPING. yea im a deep sleeper but i can be woken up by random noises at times or people talking too DAMN LOUD. am i the only one who hates being woken up by people who talk too loud in the morning? i hope not. okay enough ranting. comment. love you guys. bye.
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[02 May 2006|05:27pm]
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hope ya like :)
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[02 May 2006|07:55am]
*yawns* good morning thought id take some pics for the lovely guys on my fl. only two for now. maybe more later. dunno. not sure.

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[01 May 2006|11:19pm]
dammnit ive fallen into depression again !! what the fuck i hate this shit. i dont want to be upset or sad. i want to be happy. i want to be in love. i want to be with that special someone. i just want my life to be good and happy and everything :( this fucking sucks and i hate when this happens !! it is pissing me off and making me upset and i hate getting depressed and just wanting to wear all black + not being cheerful or anything !! someone please help me. anyway right now im watching TV to try and cheer me up even though it wont go away and it wont help me and ill get bitchy and wanting to cry and not be happy !! >:o it just fucking drives me nuts. i love my friends are here and i really want them to know ill be okay and try to get over being upset and depressed but it takes me a long time to get over depression as im sure most of you lovely people know. it just really fucking sucks being in it because no one can make u happy. ugh. comment if u want. bye.
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[28 Apr 2006|10:46am]
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some new pics of me! enjoy
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[28 Apr 2006|09:10am]
guh i hate waking up with a headache and hiccups it just doesnt make my morning yanno? plus i had yet another seizure last night so i dont remember nething that happened yesterday but thankfully i was in my bed when it happened so i didnt hit my head or ne other part of my body this time. i really hate my disorder it just ruins my day when i have one and its not a cry for attention its a cry for help and i do mean help when i have one because i get scared and freak out.
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[27 Apr 2006|08:02pm]
posting a few pics tomorrow if i feel the energy to do it. been stressed lately. not too fond of having a seizure disorder trust me it fucking sucks ass. thats why i am home from college for a few days.
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[26 Apr 2006|10:06am]
ugh im obsessed with RENT <3 i love it! i cant stop listening to the soundtrack.
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[24 Apr 2006|09:20am]
yesterday was okay i really didnt do a lot of interesting things since yesterday was basically to two of my projects er finish up one and do one that was due today only its due in my night class but i wanted to get it done and out of the way so i wouldnt have to stress about it today during the afternoon before the class started like my ex-boyfriend Matt who forgot to do it so he's screwed. anyway after i did both of my projects i went to walmart with Matt at 11:30 pm because i needed to get some things and so did he so we both went and stayed for 15 minutes and then we went back to the apartments because i was gonnna drop dead asleep in his car if we didnt get back soon enough. so after we got back to the apartments i went to mine and just crashed in my bed because i was really tired and didnt want to deal with anyone on campus. i got up today at 8:00 am surprisingly and then got dressed, then i went up to the school to talk to one of my professors whos like a second mother to me and i told her how i had two episodes on saturday and i was really concerned about them and wanting to figure out why i am having them and how i can stop getting them or if i can stop them which would be nice. so hopefully today i wont have any episodes but if i do i wont be going to my night class because i wont be able to focus if i keep having an episode and i told my professor that id go to her if i had one during the afternoon when i had my three classes so that she can email my mother if something happens since shes at work today and everything else. ok well i think that is enough for today. ill write more tonight if anything happens with my seizures today or not. love you guys. bye bye.
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[23 Mar 2006|10:07pm]
everyone go add /~tormentedxkiss
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[23 Mar 2006|04:03pm]
i wanna new lj name, someone help me think of an interesting one with fairy in it.
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